After a lot of time thinking, reflecting, organizing ideas, investigating, trying to understand a little more about this virtual world that is the internet in order to understand the best way to materialize what I wanted to create, the day finally came when Mystic Wings launches on his first flight, opening up a path that is totally new to me.
It could be just a site to promote my creative work but, over the course of defining ideas, I realized I wanted more. I wanted a place where I could share my thoughts and ideas, where I could write even if it was not fantasy stories. I wanted a place where I could share all my passions, not just my books and art. I wanted a place where I could share the works of other creators who inspire me, helping me to grow and evolve. I wanted a place where I could manifest myself as myself – the person who engages in so many different interests – so that I could connect with the public in a more authentic way …
I began to realize that the challenge was going to be huge, not because of the work I would have to do, but because of the internal issues that I was going to have to face. For me, it was just another confirmation that this was the way to go.
I’ve always been a more introverted person. Although, in certain situations, I can really speak a lot, I usually keep my deepest thoughts to myself. Suddenly, I’m thinking about creating a blog to share my thoughts with the world. It is scary!
But there is something even more frightening. Although I have a lot of confidence in the quality of my writing and my books, the same is not true of my art. For some time I had to deal with the typical inner belief that what I do is not worth enough. In fact, the first facebook page I created to promote my art was for me more of a therapy exercise whose goal was to help me overcome the shame I had to show my work than a real publicity attempt. Proposing myself to create a project with the wingspan of Mystic Wings made small (great) fears that still lie hidden within my being tremble, showing me that they still live in me even if they do not manifest with the same force. I literally saw myself making excuses to begin and then, when the universe (or life, or whatever you want to call it), took away all the excuses from me (in a not very pleasant way I confess), I felt the anxiety grow at every step I took to get started on this project. But, as I normally say, fears exist to be faced and thus this project has gained even more reason to be and also a new goal.
All these self-awareness realisations that were happening while planning everything and taking the first steps made me realize that there is something else I want to share – my path and constant struggle to achieve my dream. As I have done a loto f times, there are many people in the world who are (in)consciously boycotting their course due to subtly (or not) rooted beliefs that they do not have enough value, which usually feels more like a fear of failing or not being accepted. If through my blog and the sharing of my way, with all the victories and defeats that I will have, I can inspire even if it is one single person to walk in the way of his dreams, then all the work that I had and I will have will be worthy.
I will certainly talk more about this and other issues in future posts. For now, I wanted to give you just a short introduction to what the Mystic Wings project is and intends to be. When I look at the result, I always get the feeling that nothing is as I would like, even though I do not know how to do it better. Nothing is “perfect”, nor the logo, nor the site, nor the image in general, nor even texts. And at the same time, everything is perfect, because everything is an authentic reflection of where I am now.
Don’t stop yourself from doing anything because you feel you do not yet have enough ability to do it right. Most of the time, the ability is only acquired by doing. A bird does not learn to fly before leaving the nest, it has to leave the nest to learn how to fly.
There is still a lot to create, but the blog is already active so that everything can follow up.
Tânia Gomes, Mystic Wings
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